Saturday Justin worked, so I did his laundry (hey, why not?) and then watched a few movies. He got to come home for lunch (I ordered pizza! That's a funny story if you ever want to hear it.) and we had a pretty normal day.
Sunday we got up early, got ready, and drove to Centerville, MO to eat, be merry, and most importantly - for me to meet Justin's family. I must have made a good impression as I got no scowls, only hugs. (Yay!) Everyone was VERY nice, he has an awesome family.
We arrived to an empty house and wondered if we were in the right place! He showed me around, told me who everyone in the family photos were (so I could get a head start on names) and about 15 minutes later his mom and her boyfriend arrived with the first of the food and to let us know that everyone was still on their way. (We were EARLY for once!!) The day was the usual family Christmas, talking, eating, presents, we headed over to visit with one of his mom's old friends who was also very nice and then headed home to her house to spend the night. We opened presents and got some dinner there and hit the hay.
We had decided to sleep in Monday so we did! (YAY again!) His mom cooked us a yuuummmmmmy breakfast of french toast and bacon and we hung out for a while as his dad wasn't at the Christmas celebration at his aunt's house yet and then said our goodbyes with a promise to bring him back home soon. The trip to his Aunt's was short, and I was quickly introduced to that side of his family. Everyone was talking and laughing, it was a very good place atmosphere to be around on Christmas. Everyone was great and very friendly! About 1:30 in the afternoon (we had only been there since about noon) we decided to exchange gifts so we popped into one of his cousin's rooms and did so.
I gave him a camera. He loved it, but it was woefully inadequate to my present - he asked me to marry him! My mind went blank when I realized what was happening, but somehow I managed to blurt out 'Yes!!' (good thing!!)
We both sat and hugged and cried for a while and then went out and made the announcement. Everyone has told me that they will be glad to have me in their family, and I am very glad to have their approval and support! We had to leave a little early because we were driving all the way back to Springfield, so we headed out. We celebrated at TGI Friday's for dinner (I had my celebratory fajitas - it was the only thing open!!) and we snuggled and talked about all the things we're going to have to plan.
Tuesday Justin was going to leave me his car, so I got up with him early to drop him off at work, but he wasn't feeling too good and we needed to see if we could get my ring resized so he went inside and saw that he only had 2 small jobs so he thankfully got the day off. (He was really sick last night so I'm more glad that we got to spend the day together and that he wasn't out in the cold.) I got to meet a few of the people he works with, including his friend Tim (who I've been wanting to meet!) and when he was good to go we headed home. We went back to bed and slept in again (yay!) and then got ready and went out shopping. We hit B&N so that I could use my gift card that his sister gave me, Best Buy for the $4.99 movies, the Traveler Info center for MO gifts for my co-workers that I've been promising them since October, and the jewler's to get my ring resized (just a half size, it was allllmost big enough ). We also ran out to the Harley store to get a shirt for Michelle, but they were closed! (Grrrr..) We also hit PetSmart (a surprise stop) but they didn't have any puppies or kitties to cuddle (not even a hamster!) and then popped into a Cat/Dog gift store where I found presents for Carrie (who's let me stay at her house since September). I won't say what they are until I give them to her in case she reads this!!
I took care of him and we watched some movies and went to bed early and got a good night's sleep. This morning we got up and he headed to work and I finished packing up the last of my stuff and got a taxi to the airport. It was really nice this time that I didn't bring a lot of stuff so I had plenty of time to get everywhere. (I don't like running through the airport and being all sweaty and stinky!) The flight back was mostly on-time and uneventful, and now here I am at work doing my thing.
I gotta go, but I just wanted to let everyone know what happened! It was the BEST Christmas vacation!!
TTYL!
<3
A
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Saturday, December 23, 2006
MySpace - Update 12/23/06
Let me tell you a happy Christmas travel story!
Prologue: Two years ago, the day before Thanksgiving, my flight to go see my mom was cancelled. I am still very bitter and have only flown once since.
Friday I got up and finished packing, went in to work about 10:30 because I was just going to go to the airport from work (because it's about 30 minutes closer). Everyone leaves work and around 6 pm I start checking nwa.com for my flight that leaves at 9:30pm. Trouble. The first leg of the flight from Canada is delayed an hour. two hours. three hours. They update the Mpls -> Springfield leg to say 'Flight Pending, information will be updated at 6:47.' The information was finally updated at 6:51 and everything pointed to being on time.
I tried the Park'N'Fly this time, $50 to park in a secure lot, and a shuttle bus picks me up and drops me off at my car and right at the ground transportation area of the airport. (About $10 cheaper than parking at the cheapest lot at the airport plus I don't have to hoof it to the light rail and back.) There was a luggage check for online check-in just 2 escalators up, so I checked my bag and started following the signs to the Gate area. Security was a breeze (for me), I didn't do the 3 oz. of liquid in a bottle in a baggie B.S. and they decided my digital camera and iPod weren't bombs so all was good. I headed to my gate at a leisurly stroll, seeing as we were supposed to be on time and I still had about an hour until boarding time.
Our plane finally arrived about 10 minutes before we were set to depart at 9:23, and we were finally situated and taking off about 9:50. Our flight attendant, Josh, was very tired but very funny. At that late hour we all just needed a little humor so it was very nice to have someone with a sense of humor taking care of us. Oh.. and yay for no prearranged seat assignment as I was in 2D!! 5th person off the plane! I listened to the first 7 Dean Koontz podcasts on the way and re-found the title of one of his books that I've been wanting to read again (Watchers - about a golden retriever that has the brain capacity of a human and can talk who escapes from a genetic testing facility only to pair up with a disgruntled 35-yr old military vet.) and got to hear a lot about his newest book that I really want to read now (The Husband).
We landed at our exact scheduled arrival time of 11:08 pm and booked it to get to the jetway. I called Justin about halfway down the ramp between the gates and baggage claim (what.. you thought Springfield/Branson National Airport would be more impressive?) and asked 'Where are you?' I was surprised to hear 'Around...' I turned in a circle and found him and greeted him with a big long hug. That hug was the beginning of my vacation. YAY!
We waited and wondered as two (of the three) luggage carousels started up and spun around.. nothing. Fortunately we were standing by a security door and one of the guys popped out and said quietly that our stuff would be on the third carousel. We were the first ones there as it started spinning and finally we found my blue cubey suitcase and were off! A quick sidestop at McD's on the way home because I hadn't eaten in 12 hours and then finally home!
We are driving to his family's place tomorrow morning, then probably spending the night at his mom's house tomorrow night and to his dad's to celebrate on Monday, then driving back Monday night. I'll be offline until then and cell phone reception will be spotty so I'll get in touch when we get back.
I hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday, let me know how it went and what you got!!
Much love,
A
Prologue: Two years ago, the day before Thanksgiving, my flight to go see my mom was cancelled. I am still very bitter and have only flown once since.
Friday I got up and finished packing, went in to work about 10:30 because I was just going to go to the airport from work (because it's about 30 minutes closer). Everyone leaves work and around 6 pm I start checking nwa.com for my flight that leaves at 9:30pm. Trouble. The first leg of the flight from Canada is delayed an hour. two hours. three hours. They update the Mpls -> Springfield leg to say 'Flight Pending, information will be updated at 6:47.' The information was finally updated at 6:51 and everything pointed to being on time.
I tried the Park'N'Fly this time, $50 to park in a secure lot, and a shuttle bus picks me up and drops me off at my car and right at the ground transportation area of the airport. (About $10 cheaper than parking at the cheapest lot at the airport plus I don't have to hoof it to the light rail and back.) There was a luggage check for online check-in just 2 escalators up, so I checked my bag and started following the signs to the Gate area. Security was a breeze (for me), I didn't do the 3 oz. of liquid in a bottle in a baggie B.S. and they decided my digital camera and iPod weren't bombs so all was good. I headed to my gate at a leisurly stroll, seeing as we were supposed to be on time and I still had about an hour until boarding time.
Our plane finally arrived about 10 minutes before we were set to depart at 9:23, and we were finally situated and taking off about 9:50. Our flight attendant, Josh, was very tired but very funny. At that late hour we all just needed a little humor so it was very nice to have someone with a sense of humor taking care of us. Oh.. and yay for no prearranged seat assignment as I was in 2D!! 5th person off the plane! I listened to the first 7 Dean Koontz podcasts on the way and re-found the title of one of his books that I've been wanting to read again (Watchers - about a golden retriever that has the brain capacity of a human and can talk who escapes from a genetic testing facility only to pair up with a disgruntled 35-yr old military vet.) and got to hear a lot about his newest book that I really want to read now (The Husband).
We landed at our exact scheduled arrival time of 11:08 pm and booked it to get to the jetway. I called Justin about halfway down the ramp between the gates and baggage claim (what.. you thought Springfield/Branson National Airport would be more impressive?) and asked 'Where are you?' I was surprised to hear 'Around...' I turned in a circle and found him and greeted him with a big long hug. That hug was the beginning of my vacation. YAY!
We waited and wondered as two (of the three) luggage carousels started up and spun around.. nothing. Fortunately we were standing by a security door and one of the guys popped out and said quietly that our stuff would be on the third carousel. We were the first ones there as it started spinning and finally we found my blue cubey suitcase and were off! A quick sidestop at McD's on the way home because I hadn't eaten in 12 hours and then finally home!
We are driving to his family's place tomorrow morning, then probably spending the night at his mom's house tomorrow night and to his dad's to celebrate on Monday, then driving back Monday night. I'll be offline until then and cell phone reception will be spotty so I'll get in touch when we get back.
I hope everyone has a safe and happy holiday, let me know how it went and what you got!!
Much love,
A
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
MySpace - Update 12/20/06
So I've got new digs, just went and looked at a place tonight and it's pretty perfect, at least for now (or the next year - however long the lease turns out to be). I'm hoping to move in Jan 1st, but we'll see how things go.
I'll post some pics and send info via e-mail when things are firmer, I just had to put some money down tonight to make sure that I got it.
YAY!!
More info to come!
<3 A
I'll post some pics and send info via e-mail when things are firmer, I just had to put some money down tonight to make sure that I got it.
YAY!!
More info to come!
<3 A
Friday, December 15, 2006
MySpace - Update 12/15/06
Why a new myspace? Because there were things associated with my old account that I want to erase constant reminders of. Not just for me, but for the people that care about me as well.
Sorry to make everyone move over! I tried to do as much of the work as possible but I know it's still a pain. I think I might even revamp my layout after the holidays when I have some downtime!!
A quick shout-out to Justin, Jenni, and Matt - you have been there for me at my lowest times lately and have been so supportive and caring that I don't know how to thank you. (I know, you'll all say that I don't need to.) It really means a lot to me to have you in my life.
Sorry to make everyone move over! I tried to do as much of the work as possible but I know it's still a pain. I think I might even revamp my layout after the holidays when I have some downtime!!
A quick shout-out to Justin, Jenni, and Matt - you have been there for me at my lowest times lately and have been so supportive and caring that I don't know how to thank you. (I know, you'll all say that I don't need to.) It really means a lot to me to have you in my life.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
MySpace - Update 12/13/06
Stolen from Caroline because I liked it. Haha!
A YEAR-END SURVEY LIKE NO OTHER
1.) Where did you ring in 2006?
Alaska, in my mom's R.V.
2.) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
still engaged
3.) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
No! Haha! Boo for school!
4.) How did you earn your keep?
I freelanced, then was a temp for the people who eventually hired me after like 2 months. Now I am gainfully employed (again)!
5.) Did you have to go to the hospital?
Yes, had to go to the ER recently but I'm mostly all better now!
6.) Did you have any encounters with the police?
One speeding ticket, I think that was it.
7.) Where did you go on vacation?
Alaska (it still counts if I was there for the first 3 days of the year!), Michigan for a wedding and to Springfield a few times recently.
8.) What did you purchase that was over $500?
Nothing, thankfully.
9.) Did you know anybody who got married?
Yes, Jeremiah's brother
10.) Did you know anybody who passed away?
No
11.) Have you run into anybody you graduated high school with?
Not in my graduating class, but I 'met up' with Jenni and Kimmy again via myspace!!
12.) Did you move anywhere?
Yes, into Carrie's basement. Hopefully early 2007 will find me in a new apartment!!
13.) What sporting events did you go to?
I think just the Vikings game that I won tickets to in October.
14.) What concerts/shows did you go to?
BNL! I think that was it. Random movies here and there.
15.) Are you registered to vote?
Yes, have been since I was able.
16.) If so, did you do your patriotic duty on Nov. 7?
Nope, I only vote for the president because I don't pay attention to local politics.
17.) Where do you live now?
Hastings, MN in Carrie's basement. (Lovingly known as the 'futon fairy')
18.) Describe your birthday.
Relaxing. Finally!
19.) What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2006?
Leave the relationship I was in.
20.) What is one thing you regret from this year?
I try never to regret, but I do feel sorry about the way certain things went down.
21.) What's something you learned about yourself?
That I was still in me. Sounds funny, but I had lost myself. That I could be really happy again. That I have a few people that really care deeply about me - that was the biggest thing I learned.
22.) Any new additions to your family?
Not my immediate family, unless you count my dad's new cat and my mom's new dog.
23.) What was your best month?
Probably April/May. I had my new job and things were going really well.
24.) What from pop culture will you remember 2006 by?
All of the new music that Justin introduced me to, and McKinley Place that Caroline made me listen to (and I love).
25.) How do you plan to ring in 2007?
Not sure, Justin will be up here but I haven't really figured out if we'll be going out somewhere, up to St. Cloud, whatever. Probably won't know until a few days before, knowing me!
A YEAR-END SURVEY LIKE NO OTHER
1.) Where did you ring in 2006?
Alaska, in my mom's R.V.
2.) What was your status by Valentine's Day?
still engaged
3.) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
No! Haha! Boo for school!
4.) How did you earn your keep?
I freelanced, then was a temp for the people who eventually hired me after like 2 months. Now I am gainfully employed (again)!
5.) Did you have to go to the hospital?
Yes, had to go to the ER recently but I'm mostly all better now!
6.) Did you have any encounters with the police?
One speeding ticket, I think that was it.
7.) Where did you go on vacation?
Alaska (it still counts if I was there for the first 3 days of the year!), Michigan for a wedding and to Springfield a few times recently.
8.) What did you purchase that was over $500?
Nothing, thankfully.
9.) Did you know anybody who got married?
Yes, Jeremiah's brother
10.) Did you know anybody who passed away?
No
11.) Have you run into anybody you graduated high school with?
Not in my graduating class, but I 'met up' with Jenni and Kimmy again via myspace!!
12.) Did you move anywhere?
Yes, into Carrie's basement. Hopefully early 2007 will find me in a new apartment!!
13.) What sporting events did you go to?
I think just the Vikings game that I won tickets to in October.
14.) What concerts/shows did you go to?
BNL! I think that was it. Random movies here and there.
15.) Are you registered to vote?
Yes, have been since I was able.
16.) If so, did you do your patriotic duty on Nov. 7?
Nope, I only vote for the president because I don't pay attention to local politics.
17.) Where do you live now?
Hastings, MN in Carrie's basement. (Lovingly known as the 'futon fairy')
18.) Describe your birthday.
Relaxing. Finally!
19.) What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2006?
Leave the relationship I was in.
20.) What is one thing you regret from this year?
I try never to regret, but I do feel sorry about the way certain things went down.
21.) What's something you learned about yourself?
That I was still in me. Sounds funny, but I had lost myself. That I could be really happy again. That I have a few people that really care deeply about me - that was the biggest thing I learned.
22.) Any new additions to your family?
Not my immediate family, unless you count my dad's new cat and my mom's new dog.
23.) What was your best month?
Probably April/May. I had my new job and things were going really well.
24.) What from pop culture will you remember 2006 by?
All of the new music that Justin introduced me to, and McKinley Place that Caroline made me listen to (and I love).
25.) How do you plan to ring in 2007?
Not sure, Justin will be up here but I haven't really figured out if we'll be going out somewhere, up to St. Cloud, whatever. Probably won't know until a few days before, knowing me!
Saturday, December 2, 2006
MySpace - Update 12/2/06
So last Saturday I was diagnosed with mono at the Urgent Care in Springfield (I was visiting Justin over Thanksgiving). They told me to take Motrin for the pain and swelling, and that I just had to 'suffer through it'. I talked to my mom and she said that the first two weeks was the worst, and that since I had been feeling bad for almost a week, the worst of it was almost over. Around Tuesday my throat started to swell up and I had some pain swallowing. I drove back Wednesday, very tired and still with more pain swallowing.. I could hardly eat regular food. I worked Wed (just for 2.5 hrs), Thurs and Fri but upon talking to my friend Matt decided that something needed to be done. I didn't get any sleep on Thursday night because I was so worried that with my tonsils swollen so large that I could hardly breathe when I was awake - that I would stop breathing in the night and with noone around to notice.. a bad thing would happen.
Yesterday I e-mailed and then called my mom to ask her about getting a steroid pack. She asked me a few questions, and then said that I needed to go to the ER, and 'now'. After a half an hour of her convincing me (I know... I'm a stubborn ass) I finally conceded. She told me how much better I'd feel and I really hoped she was right. Because of my crying and whining that I didn't want to go I was in obvious distress when I got there.. could hardly talk. (Really helped my case and sympathy factor, but I'm pretty sure they would have done what they did anyway). Took about 15 minutes to get seen, but then the doc (and older gentleman, very nice) came in to examine me. He squeezed out tears of pain when he felt my neck that was so swollen I couldn't open my jaw wider than an inch.. couldn't turn my head to either side. Right away he looked at my tonsils and told me that he wanted me on an IV of steroids with pain meds to help me swallow and then he would give me oral steroids to take for the next week. He said 'You're going to feel a lot better when you leave here tonight.' I cried again and wheezed out a 'Thank you!'.
For anyone who has never had an IV... let me just say. It is 50x worse than having your blood drawn.. not as bad as a huge shot of antibiotics in your butt. It's a constant nagging ache in the crook of your elbow (that's my easiest stick) and even though they use the flexible plastic needle things so you can bend your arm, the drip goes faster if you keep it straight. Which, in my case meant that the cold saline/steroid concoction made my hand numb from the cold and being in the same position for the 2 hours it took. 2 hours! I thank that doc much much much for the Tordol for my pain, that made it bearable since about a half hour later I could swallow without grimacing.
When I left I was feeling worlds better and I could breathe freely again, it made me so tired because I knew that I would be able to sleep!! But the steroids put a bounce in my step (even though I was still a little dizzy) so I stayed up and chatted and played until midnight, then had a full 8 hours of sleep! YAY! It was like the part in 'City of Angels' where she rolls over and realizes she finally got a full night's sleep and cheers. (See, I'm relating my life to movies again - it's so obvious I'm starting to feel myself!)
Watched Superman Returns.. took my first dose of steroids as directed, and my tonsils are about half the size they were last night. I know... always listen to your mother. Especially when she's a doctor. Le sigh. I hate that she's always right...
Out for now, just wanted to let everyone know what's going on and that I'm doing much much better!! Oh, and THANK YOU to Caroline for finally sending me her pictures of us!! New pics up here on myspace of me and me/her.
Later taters!
A
Yesterday I e-mailed and then called my mom to ask her about getting a steroid pack. She asked me a few questions, and then said that I needed to go to the ER, and 'now'. After a half an hour of her convincing me (I know... I'm a stubborn ass) I finally conceded. She told me how much better I'd feel and I really hoped she was right. Because of my crying and whining that I didn't want to go I was in obvious distress when I got there.. could hardly talk. (Really helped my case and sympathy factor, but I'm pretty sure they would have done what they did anyway). Took about 15 minutes to get seen, but then the doc (and older gentleman, very nice) came in to examine me. He squeezed out tears of pain when he felt my neck that was so swollen I couldn't open my jaw wider than an inch.. couldn't turn my head to either side. Right away he looked at my tonsils and told me that he wanted me on an IV of steroids with pain meds to help me swallow and then he would give me oral steroids to take for the next week. He said 'You're going to feel a lot better when you leave here tonight.' I cried again and wheezed out a 'Thank you!'.
For anyone who has never had an IV... let me just say. It is 50x worse than having your blood drawn.. not as bad as a huge shot of antibiotics in your butt. It's a constant nagging ache in the crook of your elbow (that's my easiest stick) and even though they use the flexible plastic needle things so you can bend your arm, the drip goes faster if you keep it straight. Which, in my case meant that the cold saline/steroid concoction made my hand numb from the cold and being in the same position for the 2 hours it took. 2 hours! I thank that doc much much much for the Tordol for my pain, that made it bearable since about a half hour later I could swallow without grimacing.
When I left I was feeling worlds better and I could breathe freely again, it made me so tired because I knew that I would be able to sleep!! But the steroids put a bounce in my step (even though I was still a little dizzy) so I stayed up and chatted and played until midnight, then had a full 8 hours of sleep! YAY! It was like the part in 'City of Angels' where she rolls over and realizes she finally got a full night's sleep and cheers. (See, I'm relating my life to movies again - it's so obvious I'm starting to feel myself!)
Watched Superman Returns.. took my first dose of steroids as directed, and my tonsils are about half the size they were last night. I know... always listen to your mother. Especially when she's a doctor. Le sigh. I hate that she's always right...
Out for now, just wanted to let everyone know what's going on and that I'm doing much much better!! Oh, and THANK YOU to Caroline for finally sending me her pictures of us!! New pics up here on myspace of me and me/her.
Later taters!
A
Saturday, November 25, 2006
MySpace - Update 11/25/06
I have mono. You should have seen my face when the doctor told me. I was thinking 'Me? Mono? Surely you jest.' But the blood test confirms it. For those of you who have never had mono (that you know of) or that are sitting there going 'OMG that slut was out kissing people and got sick' I recommend you read this link. I had to google 'mono' when I got home because although I know people that have had mono, I've never thought I had it. This is another good link as well. I have no idea where I caught it - maybe some stranger coughed or sneezed on me and I didn't notice, or maybe it was when Caroline asked to use my lip gloss a few weeks ago. Maybe it was aliens! I have no clue (as usual).
The funniest part was that the doc said 'say ahh' and the second i opened my mouth she said 'Oh my, if that's not strep I'll eat my shorts!' I thought 'PHEW!'. Then she felt my neck and went 'Oh.. hmm.. um.. well we'll see what your strep test says and if it's negative then I'll have someone from the lab come in to draw your blood to test.' She left. Not 2 minutes later a lab tech came in and I'm sure my face said 'Oh f*cking no.' She didn't tell me the results, just took my blood.. but I knew what that meant. (Dammit.) Finally the doc came back and told me the blood test had confirmed mono and I wanted to tell her to eat her d*mn shorts.
I started to think after reading these articles, that mono is sort of like chicken-pox for 20-somethings. Seems like our parents should round us all up and make us share drinks if they find out that one of us had it. I really wish I'd had it in high school now, I was never kissing anyone back then anyway and there are a few people that I would have loved to make feel this miserable. (Yes, I would have. I'm just a spiteful bitch underneath this sweet fairy exterior. Don't you know me at all? )
That is all. I am told that no medicine can cure me. I need to keep hydrated and lay around like a lazy ass until I start to feel better. That is, for 2-3 months. Oh yeah, and no open-mouth kissing for 6 months. Ha! She even gave me a dr's note for '1 week off of work or school'. Yeah, like that's going to happen. If only I could still get paid for it!
I hope that I haven't infected anyone - I am truly sorry if I have. I will attempt not to infect anyone else, or at least let people know that I'm broken yet again.
If it's not one thing it's the next, isn't it? Maybe I will be healthy sometime in the summer of 2007, I'll let you all know.
Love and peace,
A
The funniest part was that the doc said 'say ahh' and the second i opened my mouth she said 'Oh my, if that's not strep I'll eat my shorts!' I thought 'PHEW!'. Then she felt my neck and went 'Oh.. hmm.. um.. well we'll see what your strep test says and if it's negative then I'll have someone from the lab come in to draw your blood to test.' She left. Not 2 minutes later a lab tech came in and I'm sure my face said 'Oh f*cking no.' She didn't tell me the results, just took my blood.. but I knew what that meant. (Dammit.) Finally the doc came back and told me the blood test had confirmed mono and I wanted to tell her to eat her d*mn shorts.
I started to think after reading these articles, that mono is sort of like chicken-pox for 20-somethings. Seems like our parents should round us all up and make us share drinks if they find out that one of us had it. I really wish I'd had it in high school now, I was never kissing anyone back then anyway and there are a few people that I would have loved to make feel this miserable. (Yes, I would have. I'm just a spiteful bitch underneath this sweet fairy exterior. Don't you know me at all? )
That is all. I am told that no medicine can cure me. I need to keep hydrated and lay around like a lazy ass until I start to feel better. That is, for 2-3 months. Oh yeah, and no open-mouth kissing for 6 months. Ha! She even gave me a dr's note for '1 week off of work or school'. Yeah, like that's going to happen. If only I could still get paid for it!
I hope that I haven't infected anyone - I am truly sorry if I have. I will attempt not to infect anyone else, or at least let people know that I'm broken yet again.
If it's not one thing it's the next, isn't it? Maybe I will be healthy sometime in the summer of 2007, I'll let you all know.
Love and peace,
A
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
MySpace - Update 9/12/06
I am sorry that I've been out of the loop lately, but I know that I should start to fill in the gaps. I recently realized that I haven't been happy in my relationship for a long time. Years. This realization has been sinking in over the last few months as I've formed closer bonds with people at work and in WoW, and have started to laugh and enjoy life again. There was really no one earth-shattering event, more like a rumbling that finally rocked the foundation loose.
I've decided to leave my current relationship. We are calling it a 'separation'. I need time to find out who I am and how I can be happy again, and start living my life again (not just trudging through day-by-day). We are both hopeful that after this period apart, we can start to date again, talk more openly, and be honest with each other. I think one of the hardest things for me to hear is that he thought that I was acting the way I have because it's just the way I was. I thought 'What about that bright, young peppy girl that you fell in love with? The one that would turn and kiss you at every red light?'. I guess with time those memories fade until we don't realize that a person has changed. He is working very hard on being more open with me, and I really do appreciate it, but I just need time by myself. I think that with time I can be more open with him again and maybe we can work through these issues that have made me feel so numb for so long.
I am scared. Mostly of where I am going to live, how I'm going to get by. This is somewhat balanced by the excitement I feel about starting to do the things that once made me very happy, that filled my life with friends and fun. I am going to start bowling again. I am going to play tennis again. I am going to go to church and try not to be angry and resentful about those I have lost. I am finally going to grieve. I am going to take trips by myself. I am going to go somewhere I've always wanted to but never did. I'm going to write again (I know... crappy poetry INC!). I am going to finish my degree. I'm going to spend time getting to know my friends. I'm going to go out on the weekends and meet new people. I'm going to take long walks. I'm going to visit the friends that I've rekindled relationships with on myspace. Most importantly, I am going to go through a period of self reflection where I can hopefully learn to overcome my own personal issues and learn to love myself.
This whole thing makes me feel very 'Bridget Jones'… maybe I should keep a diary. I'm not sure I'd want everyone to read it though…
That's all for now, I will write an update when I've found a place to live for a while and start settling in.
Thank you for the love and support you have given me so far, and for the support I'm sure to receive in the upcoming months. It means a lot to me to have the friends I do.
Love, Amy
I've decided to leave my current relationship. We are calling it a 'separation'. I need time to find out who I am and how I can be happy again, and start living my life again (not just trudging through day-by-day). We are both hopeful that after this period apart, we can start to date again, talk more openly, and be honest with each other. I think one of the hardest things for me to hear is that he thought that I was acting the way I have because it's just the way I was. I thought 'What about that bright, young peppy girl that you fell in love with? The one that would turn and kiss you at every red light?'. I guess with time those memories fade until we don't realize that a person has changed. He is working very hard on being more open with me, and I really do appreciate it, but I just need time by myself. I think that with time I can be more open with him again and maybe we can work through these issues that have made me feel so numb for so long.
I am scared. Mostly of where I am going to live, how I'm going to get by. This is somewhat balanced by the excitement I feel about starting to do the things that once made me very happy, that filled my life with friends and fun. I am going to start bowling again. I am going to play tennis again. I am going to go to church and try not to be angry and resentful about those I have lost. I am finally going to grieve. I am going to take trips by myself. I am going to go somewhere I've always wanted to but never did. I'm going to write again (I know... crappy poetry INC!). I am going to finish my degree. I'm going to spend time getting to know my friends. I'm going to go out on the weekends and meet new people. I'm going to take long walks. I'm going to visit the friends that I've rekindled relationships with on myspace. Most importantly, I am going to go through a period of self reflection where I can hopefully learn to overcome my own personal issues and learn to love myself.
This whole thing makes me feel very 'Bridget Jones'… maybe I should keep a diary. I'm not sure I'd want everyone to read it though…
That's all for now, I will write an update when I've found a place to live for a while and start settling in.
Thank you for the love and support you have given me so far, and for the support I'm sure to receive in the upcoming months. It means a lot to me to have the friends I do.
Love, Amy
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